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[1stclasspuppy]

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[needsabreak]

did you get yourself a contract then? or are they... uh... nevermind. best not really talk about this on the network.

have you thought at all about finding someone to help you out this month?

[1stclasspuppy]

A contract? Oh no not even close yet. I don't really know how to just ask someone about that.

I was thinking of maybe helping take someone out of the jail, don't like that there's a jail really. That's kind of my maybe plan for the month.

[he's struggling a bit]

[needsabreak]

right. you're a dominant. you can work without needing a contract. i forget that sometimes.

you have 3 months on that, so it's not a huge rush.

... the other part kind of is.

do you work with any nice girls or anything?

[1stclasspuppy]

Three months, got it! I should be able to find someone to take care of in that time no problem!

The owner is really nice and I haven't been there long enough to meet everyone yet. Why do you ask? Are you looking for a girlfriend Leon?

[needsabreak]

what??? no

no, zack...

because you need to find someone to have sex with in the next couple of weeks. we have quotas and you do NOT want to come up short or they'll force you to have sex. belive me, you don't want that.

[1stclasspuppy]

I get that but why were you asking about my coworkers? Are you bored with Rude and your partner?

I'll figure something out, always have. I just need to practice or something

[needsabreak]

i didn't ask about your coworker. i asked if you'd met any nice girls. i was asking for your sake cause i'm worried you might not want to find anyone after what you said.

i know it must be hard when you have someone back home but they don't care here

you need practice?

[1stclasspuppy]

Oh! That makes more sense then. I think. I mean I met one or two but I don't know if I'm ready to have another girlfriend. It's been 4 years and I was sort of asleep for it so maybe we aren't dating anymore but still I'd feel a little bad.

I know I need to mosey on that a little. I haven't even kissed anyone here.

[needsabreak]

you probably shouldn't think about it like a 'girl friend' but i'll leave that up to you to decide

i'm guessing you haven't been here long enough to find someone you wouldn't mind 'practicing' on yet? is rude the only person here who you know from home?

[1stclasspuppy]

Oh right it's a sort of no feelings thing too. I don't know if I could do that with someone I don't like though.

I mean, there are really pretty and handsome people here! I just, I guess I'm kind of nervous? The most I've ever done is kiss and I've only kissed one person before. What if I'm terrible? Yeah Rude's the only one.

[needsabreak]

well. i didn't say do it with people you don't like. but liking someone and having romantic intentions... you can try to keep them separate.

[Handsome? That's... an interesting choice of words. Pretty and handsome. Noted.]

hm. well. you can't learn without doing. i mean you could watch some videos but you kind of just need to do it to get better at it. but even then, i bet you'll do fine.

not to make things weird, but if you have any questions i can try to answer them. rude would probably be a lot better at that than me though

[1stclasspuppy]

I guess, I mean I think I can. I know I loved Aerith, I still do and well

Actually

You're right I should try to just find someone I kind of enjoy pending time with right? Maybe?!?


I don't want to bother either of you and your partners. I can watch some videos I guess if I need to. I did try the classes but pictures don't help me as much as seeing it in person does. I guess I need hands on experience. I'm just worried I'm going to be a bad kisser or something. Aerith liked my kisses but I think I was her first boyfriend so I'm not sure if that's good or bad.

[needsabreak]

you're not bothering me or anyone with questions. ask away. and don't be worried, you'll do fine

but yeah, a lot of people use the term 'friends with benefits'. the benefits being, y'know, sex

[1stclasspuppy]

You and Rude are friends with benefits right? Does it get lonely at all? Can you still cuddle each other after?

It gets lonely in my place at night, it's really quiet and I don't like it. Back hoke I had the sounds of the city when I was alone, and when I was on the run my friend was there. He...he didn't talk much but that was still another person breathing near me. I'm not used to this.

[needsabreak]

yeah, that's right

lonely? not really? i don't really sleep great so... maybe i'm not the best person to ask about that. but he's hung around afterward sometimes and i've done the same with other people too. i'm sure there are plenty of people who'd like to cuddle and even spend the night. whether you did anything or not.

[1stclasspuppy]

You don't sleep well? That's not good. Sleep is awesome. Are you someone who likes to cuddle and spend the night, Leon? Maybe if we cuddled you'd be able to sleep better.

[needsabreak]

eh honestly... i mean hanging out can be nice. 'cuddling' or whatever. but i usually try not to stay the night cause i know i'll likely wake up a bunch or not be able to fall asleep or worse

[God damnit, when did this become about him. This was supposed to be a conversation making sure Zack would get laid.]

[1stclasspuppy]

If it's nice then why don't we try? I have so much spare room and it would be nice to know someone else is nearby. We don't have to share the bed if you don't want to. I don't snore I promise!

[He's trying so hard to get Leon to spend the night.]

[needsabreak]

you want me to come sleep over? like... platonically? of course you do.

i

it's not going to go well

i just

i have bad nightmares. really bad.

[He really hated admitting this to anyone but he's sure Zack will blame himself somehow if he's not blatantly honest that the reason he doesn't want to sleep over is because of his own issues, not anything to do with Zack.]

sorry. if you want to sleep, having me over isn't going to help you

[1stclasspuppy]

[Zack does feel awful but only because there doesn't seem like much he can do. He still wants to try.]

Even if you don't sleep, I'd still like you to come over and try. I don't really know what you mean by platonically but I won't do anything you don't like. I just think maybe if I hold you it might help you relax. I have trouble sleeping too so I get the nightmares and well


trauma.


I won't push it but if you ever can't sleep and want company please come knocking on my door. I'd happily let you in and protect you.

[needsabreak]

fine. we can try. i'll give it a real shot. but i've slept with people before and it didn't make a difference. sometimes it makes it worse. being held. i wake up feeling trapped. attacked. but at least i know i can't really hurt you

i don't need anyone to protect me. i can protect myself.

but we can see if how this goes

and. hey. i'd prefer you not tell anyone about the nightmares.

[1stclasspuppy]

<> So I won't hold you then, at least not the whole time. That way you won't feel trapped. I'll just be near as a presence that cam help if you need.

I didn't mean to make you upset Leon. I'm just trying to help anyway I can. I don't have much else I can offer.

You have my word I won't tell anyone. If you want to come tonight, you can. I'll be awake.

[needsabreak]

we'll figure something out

but if i agree to do this, then you have to agree to try something too

you need to at least kiss someone. make out with someone. heavy petting, whatever you want to call it. i think you need to start trying stuff or a month is gonna go by and you're going to end up in trouble and i don't want that to happen to you

what time do you want me to come over?

[1stclasspuppy]

okay I promise

Can I kiss you? That counts right?

If you want I mean. I dont wanna make you uncomfortable around me.

You can come over whenever you're tired.

[needsabreak]

wait

what?

you want to kiss me?

[There had been some hints that Zack might like men and women, but he's still surprised Zack would want to kiss him of all people.]

yeah, that'd count if you wanted to

i haven't even been here that long but already... that doesn't come close to making me feel uncomfortable. i'm just surprised.

how about i come over around 10 and we can watch TV or something?