Jesus, Zack. [He mumbles as Zack rubs and thrusts against his back. He's definitely hard now and Zack's hand feels good but nowhere near good enough. But then he slows and stops, the whole thing has him confused, especially as he tries to figure out what Zack is saying.]
Zack... I'm not going anywhere. [He starts to reassure him but the whimpers strike him as strange and it's only then that it hits him that Zack is the one having a dream now.
He turns in his arms, putting a hand on his shoulder, squeezing to try to wake him.] Zack. Zack, wake up. It's alright, you're just dreaming.
[Zack's dream is in no way as traumatic as Leon's but it still makes him sad. He doesn't want Leon leaving him. He liked the kisses and touches, he wants more too but the man doesn't want him and there is nothing he can do about it. It hurts.
The pressure does start to wake him up and his glowing blue eyes do start to open, watery and looking like he might cry. Leon's the first thing he focuses on when his eyes open and he still thinks it's a dream. It's too similar to it for him to think otherwise.]
Leon, please don't hate me. I like you.
[He really does look like he might start crying and he pulls the man closer and kisses him deeply, better than the previous kiss they shared. He keeps an arm around that waist, and a hand in Leon's short hair as he presses against him, facing each other has their cocks rubbing.]
Hey. [Leon offers as he sees Zack's eyes open. He doesn't exactly smile but his expression softens, obviously glad that he's awake and getting his bearings.]
It's okay. I don't hate you. You were just dreaming. [He tries to reassure him, carding his fingers through Zack's hair.
He's a little surprised when Zack pulls him into a kiss. He definitely doesn't resist, leaning eagerly into the kiss with a soft groan. Pushing closer, he slips his hand up Zack's chest. Their hips flush together, he shifts to ease his leg between Zack's, thigh offering him something to grind against.]
[Leon sort of gives a warning but Zack doesn't head it and instead he leans into the touches and feel of everything. He's still partially asleep and thinking this isn't real anyway. He can indulge in a dream and Leon feels so good. It's better then anything he's ever felt to have Leon in his arms, maybe even nice then Aerith but he doesn't let that thought linger much.]
Leon...
[That hand is warm as it sneaks under his shirt and Zack breaks the kiss to take it off, pulling it over his head and then his lips go to seek Leon's once more, so eager to taste him once more. He's moaning into the kiss, as his cock clearly starts to strain against his loose pants. The outline is pretty visible as he rubs it against Leon's offered thigh, his own wrapped tightly around Leon as the kisses deepen into full on tongue. Leon's sweet, so incredibly sweet to Zack that he feels like he almost can't handle it. He needs more, wants more.]
[To be fair to Zack, despite trying to reassure him, he is also being very, very distracting.
He shifts slightly to let Zack tug his shirt off. Leon had worn his boxer-briefs to bed but nothing else and feeling his skin warm against his own is electric. He parts his lips into the kiss, moaning soft and low against Zack's mouth.
Leon can feel him pushing and grinding up against him, so he snakes his other hand between them, cupping and then practically stroking him through the loose pants. He doesn't tease for long, easily slipping his fingers under the waist band of his pants, loosely wrapping his hand around his shaft to start stroking him, giving Zack more to thrust against.]
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[In what Zack thinks is still a dream, he keeps rubbing and thrusting against Leon to get some kind of pleasurable friction still going between them. He's had wet dreams before and this feels like one of those but even better so it's not like he doesn't think it's possible either. He's going off instincts cause if he was awake he wouldn't know how to react to this at all and would fumble over every touch. Wet dream Zack is much more capable then conscious awake Zack.]
Ah..ngh...
[He moans into the kisses as those lips part and their tongues meet in a heated dance, trying to touch as much as they can of eachother. His hands trail lower down Leon's back, grapping his butt not to squeeze but to keep him in place as he thrusts against the warm hand in his pants and that leg. He's not sweating but his body feels hot and slowly Zack is starting to come through the haze of his sleep but not enough yet to stop. In facnt he moves quicker, so close to an orgasm already.]
[Leon's back arches as Zack runs his hand down his spine, moaning into the kiss when he gives him a squeeze. The thought crosses his mind, wanting to kiss his way down Zack's chest to finish him off with his mouth. But his desire to taste him will have to wait for some other time; Zack is clinging to him far too tightly.
Leon squeezes him each time he thrusts up through his fingers, pumping his length with each one. The kiss feels needy and hungry, especially as Zack's movements speed up and get more frantic. He groans again into the kiss as he sweeps the pad of his thumb over the head of Zack's cock, feeling how slick he is with precum. Pushing his other hand into Zack's hair, he tugs gently, grinding his own hips down against him.]
[This dream feels so realistic, almost too realistic. His eyes are starting to open more as he continues moving, the pleasure building up and the sounds of their bodies together turning Zack on in a way he's never felt before. He's so hard, so close, so needy. A moan leaves his throat and he hardly recognizes it as his own voice as he looks at Leon with sleepy eyes. Their lips keep touching and he lets the dream continue even if he is more awake now. Leon tastes so good and his hands are soft and different against his cock. It twitches in response so close.
Zack thrusts a few more times, the clarity of being awake quickly hitting him but it's already too late. He's about to climax. His eyes widen and he is about to pull away from Leon but the way the man grinds down against him in return, the way that thumb presses against the head of his cock sends him over and he climaxes hard against Leon's hand and his own pants.
He's panting as the fog takes over his thoughts, actually breathing heavy for once and still rubbing against Leon to get him to climax too. His body works more on it's own instincts then on what Zack thinks he should be doing.]
[Leon seems oblivious to the shift in Zack's lucidity, assuming he'd been awake since he started getting extra handsy. He groans softly as he feels Zack orgasm, making a mess in his hand, and he continues to stroke him firmly through it. He dips his head to kiss Zack along his jaw, sprinkling a few light nips in there as his hand slows.]
Good morning to you, too. [He chuckles before working his way back to Zack's mouth, sucking lightly on his lower lip as he grinds against him. Zack's body meets his and he rolls his hips back into Zack's hand that's still resting lightly on his ass. What he'd give for him to squeeze him again, craving his touch.
He's leaking a spot of precum against his boxer-briefs though, hard and getting closer. He's just not sure if grinding against Zack will do it.]
[Zack's awake and the realization is quickly dawning on him at what they did, are doing. He had told Leon he wouldn't want anything more, they both want two different things and yet here he is practically abusing his friend in his eyes.
Leon's soft mumble pulls at his heart strings as he goes along with it only for Leon. He holds him tighter, breaking their kiss to instead hide his face against the crook of Leon's neck. He feels so bad he can't stop the shaky tremble of his voice as he holds Leon and keeps rubbing against him to try and get him off as recompense for what he did.]
[There's no missing that tremble in Zack's voice. His instinctive response is to wrap an arm around him to pull him into a firmer embrace, turning his head slightly to nuzzle into his hair. His brain finally catches up to his instinct and he hesitates.]
Hey, you good? [His own voice is soft, concerned. He's stilled aside from running his fingers through Zack's hair. He shifts slightly, trying to move so he can look Zack in the face.]
[Zack doesn't answer at first, instead just shaking his head in a no that hes not okay. He doesn't want Leon to see his face now, doesn't want to show his tear rimmed eyes.
With the climax faded, Zack is thinking more clearly and it pains him that he did this. He hides his face further and doesnt come out.]
I didn't want to be a fling! I like you Leon, I like you a lot. I didn't...I promised I wouldn't...and yet....
[He pulls back to rub at his eyes and looks at Leon directly, looking like he might break down into tears at any moment.]
[Zack's silence speaks volumes and, once he tries to bury his face again, he doesn't force it, holding him and waiting.]
It's not- [He sighs, unsure how to explain things, how to explain himself, or this.] No, I'm sorry. I thought you were into it.
But it's not like we're just going to do this and then I'll disappear, y'know? Unless the city has other plans for me, I'm not planning on going anywhere.
It's not like a one-night stand or anything.
[He's not sure anything he's saying, trying to say, is helping at all, but when Zack shifts so he can look into his face, he gets an uncomfortable lump in his throat. He shakes his head, hating seeing Zack like this.] You don't have anything to apologize for.
We can pretend this didn't happen if you want. Or... not. I don't know. I don't know, Zack. I don't know how to make this better.
A one night stand would mean we have sex and then never speak to one another again.
And it's not you. I don't want to date anyone here. Forming a relationship here... I just don't think it's a good idea. I know you have your reasons to want to do it, but I have my reasons for not wanting to.
[He tries to disentangle himself from Zack a little, sliding off of him and letting him go so he can sit on the bed and look at Zack instead of holding him while straddling him.]
I don't understand it either, honestly. What's the big deal if we're good friends and sometimes sleep with one another? What's the difference? You can still romance someone. That someone just doesn't have to be me.
[Zack lets go of Leon easily and turns to his side instead. He pulls some of the blankets to cover himself up, feeling a bit too exposed right now.]
I want to sleep with someone who likes me...maybe even loves me. I don't want to sleep with someone who doesn't. It's special to me...I know it's stupid in this place to think it special but I can't change how I feel about it.
[He scratches a hand over the back of his head before dragging it forward and rubbing it over his face.]
I know, I know. [He grumbles, trying not to sound too frustrated.] You say that like I don't even like you or something.
[He gets up, needing to put more space between them for a minute. Maybe they both needed that, maybe not, but he heads for the bathroom, closing the door gently so he can wash his face with some cold water, shrugging off the last lingering inklings of desire and heat that had built up. He's only gone for a moment, half a minute at most, before he comes back out of the bathroom.]
Seems like I should get out of here. [He offers, looking Zack over.]
[Zack can't look at Leon right now, not cause of what Leon's done. Instead he just stays in the bed while Leon heads to the bathroom. He doesn't really say much else and when Leon walks back out he just watches him for a moment and still doesn't move.
It's when Leon is about to leave that he gets up, throwing the blankets off him as he runs after Leon and grabs him from behind.]
I think...maybe space might be good but not right this moment.
[He holds Leon a little tighter, his hands holding onto Leon's own hand. He so badly just wants to just stay like this and get to give Leon the affection he deserves but he won't push. Leon drew a line and he will follow it, though sadly.]
You're leaving though right now...I guess I can't keep you longer, you aren't my contract...we're just friends.
[He lets go of Leon and takes a step back then. He sighs and puts on a smile for Leon even if he rather not at the moment.]
C'mon, you wouldn't use your contract to force me to stay either if we had one.
I... I can stick around for a bit if you really want. I just thought you'd like... [He pauses, feeling like he sounds like a broken record.]- some space. Some time to clean up.
[Leon isn't buying the smile, turning to look at Zack with a sigh as he crosses his arms.] Did you... wanna clean up while I make some breakfast? And coffee. I could use some coffee.
[He nods, heading toward the kitchen. He washes his hands before starting to poke around, finding the waffles and some syrup and the coffee grounds. He can work with this.
It only takes a few minutes to get everything close to ready, so he goes hunting for the dishes.]
[Zack takes a bit in the shower. He really does scrub himself clean and let the tears fall now that he's alone. By the time he comes out of the shower the breakfast is made and he can smell it. He rubs his hair on a towel, fluffing it up but still dripping a little and pieces clinging to his face as he puts on a pair of loose pants and one of his tight fitting meme shirts, this one is of three raccoons.]
It smells really good.
[He comes out of the shower, still a little damp and clothes sticking to him in places. He wants to go up to Leon and hug him tenderly from behind, kiss his cheek and be sweet but he doesn't, instead unsure what he should do exactly.]
[Strangely, Leon is sort of expecting a kiss to the back of his neck, maybe for Zack to wrap his arms loosely around him and rest his chin on his shoulder. Something. So, it feels strange when he keeps his distance. Strange but completely understandable.]
Hopefully, it tastes good. I don't do waffles much.
[He turns, two plates loaded up. His gaze briefly grazes down Zack's chest where the shirt clings to him like a second skin. He just hopes his quick glance hadn't been too obvious.] You got syrup? Butter?
[In the meantime, he walks over to the table and sets the plates down, sinking down onto one of the chairs.]
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Date: 2023-11-26 08:45 am (UTC)Zack... I'm not going anywhere. [He starts to reassure him but the whimpers strike him as strange and it's only then that it hits him that Zack is the one having a dream now.
He turns in his arms, putting a hand on his shoulder, squeezing to try to wake him.] Zack. Zack, wake up. It's alright, you're just dreaming.
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Date: 2023-11-26 01:11 pm (UTC)The pressure does start to wake him up and his glowing blue eyes do start to open, watery and looking like he might cry. Leon's the first thing he focuses on when his eyes open and he still thinks it's a dream. It's too similar to it for him to think otherwise.]
Leon, please don't hate me. I like you.
[He really does look like he might start crying and he pulls the man closer and kisses him deeply, better than the previous kiss they shared. He keeps an arm around that waist, and a hand in Leon's short hair as he presses against him, facing each other has their cocks rubbing.]
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Date: 2023-11-27 07:21 am (UTC)It's okay. I don't hate you. You were just dreaming. [He tries to reassure him, carding his fingers through Zack's hair.
He's a little surprised when Zack pulls him into a kiss. He definitely doesn't resist, leaning eagerly into the kiss with a soft groan. Pushing closer, he slips his hand up Zack's chest. Their hips flush together, he shifts to ease his leg between Zack's, thigh offering him something to grind against.]
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Date: 2023-11-27 08:03 pm (UTC)Leon...
[That hand is warm as it sneaks under his shirt and Zack breaks the kiss to take it off, pulling it over his head and then his lips go to seek Leon's once more, so eager to taste him once more. He's moaning into the kiss, as his cock clearly starts to strain against his loose pants. The outline is pretty visible as he rubs it against Leon's offered thigh, his own wrapped tightly around Leon as the kisses deepen into full on tongue. Leon's sweet, so incredibly sweet to Zack that he feels like he almost can't handle it. He needs more, wants more.]
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Date: 2023-11-29 07:23 pm (UTC)He shifts slightly to let Zack tug his shirt off. Leon had worn his boxer-briefs to bed but nothing else and feeling his skin warm against his own is electric. He parts his lips into the kiss, moaning soft and low against Zack's mouth.
Leon can feel him pushing and grinding up against him, so he snakes his other hand between them, cupping and then practically stroking him through the loose pants. He doesn't tease for long, easily slipping his fingers under the waist band of his pants, loosely wrapping his hand around his shaft to start stroking him, giving Zack more to thrust against.]
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Date: 2023-11-29 07:43 pm (UTC)Ah..ngh...
[He moans into the kisses as those lips part and their tongues meet in a heated dance, trying to touch as much as they can of eachother. His hands trail lower down Leon's back, grapping his butt not to squeeze but to keep him in place as he thrusts against the warm hand in his pants and that leg. He's not sweating but his body feels hot and slowly Zack is starting to come through the haze of his sleep but not enough yet to stop. In facnt he moves quicker, so close to an orgasm already.]
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Date: 2023-11-30 07:54 pm (UTC)Leon squeezes him each time he thrusts up through his fingers, pumping his length with each one. The kiss feels needy and hungry, especially as Zack's movements speed up and get more frantic. He groans again into the kiss as he sweeps the pad of his thumb over the head of Zack's cock, feeling how slick he is with precum. Pushing his other hand into Zack's hair, he tugs gently, grinding his own hips down against him.]
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Date: 2023-12-05 02:24 am (UTC)Zack thrusts a few more times, the clarity of being awake quickly hitting him but it's already too late. He's about to climax. His eyes widen and he is about to pull away from Leon but the way the man grinds down against him in return, the way that thumb presses against the head of his cock sends him over and he climaxes hard against Leon's hand and his own pants.
He's panting as the fog takes over his thoughts, actually breathing heavy for once and still rubbing against Leon to get him to climax too. His body works more on it's own instincts then on what Zack thinks he should be doing.]
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Date: 2023-12-07 02:35 am (UTC)Good morning to you, too. [He chuckles before working his way back to Zack's mouth, sucking lightly on his lower lip as he grinds against him. Zack's body meets his and he rolls his hips back into Zack's hand that's still resting lightly on his ass. What he'd give for him to squeeze him again, craving his touch.
He's leaking a spot of precum against his boxer-briefs though, hard and getting closer. He's just not sure if grinding against Zack will do it.]
Z... need you... [He mumbles quietly.]
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Date: 2023-12-07 01:50 pm (UTC)Leon's soft mumble pulls at his heart strings as he goes along with it only for Leon. He holds him tighter, breaking their kiss to instead hide his face against the crook of Leon's neck. He feels so bad he can't stop the shaky tremble of his voice as he holds Leon and keeps rubbing against him to try and get him off as recompense for what he did.]
I-I...I'm here Leon....I'm here...
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Date: 2023-12-08 04:04 am (UTC)Hey, you good? [His own voice is soft, concerned. He's stilled aside from running his fingers through Zack's hair. He shifts slightly, trying to move so he can look Zack in the face.]
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Date: 2023-12-08 06:06 am (UTC)With the climax faded, Zack is thinking more clearly and it pains him that he did this. He hides his face further and doesnt come out.]
I didn't want to be a fling! I like you Leon, I like you a lot. I didn't...I promised I wouldn't...and yet....
[He pulls back to rub at his eyes and looks at Leon directly, looking like he might break down into tears at any moment.]
I'm so sorry.
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Date: 2023-12-08 07:35 am (UTC)It's not- [He sighs, unsure how to explain things, how to explain himself, or this.] No, I'm sorry. I thought you were into it.
But it's not like we're just going to do this and then I'll disappear, y'know? Unless the city has other plans for me, I'm not planning on going anywhere.
It's not like a one-night stand or anything.
[He's not sure anything he's saying, trying to say, is helping at all, but when Zack shifts so he can look into his face, he gets an uncomfortable lump in his throat. He shakes his head, hating seeing Zack like this.] You don't have anything to apologize for.
We can pretend this didn't happen if you want. Or... not. I don't know. I don't know, Zack. I don't know how to make this better.
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Date: 2023-12-10 10:39 am (UTC)[It pains him to think that this is probably all hes ever gong to get with Leon, a dream of what he could have.]
I...I know you aren't going anywhere but you said you didn't want to date me. How is that not a one night stand?
[He's trying so hard not to have those tears welling up in his eyes fall.]
I dont...I don't understand it.
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Date: 2023-12-11 04:51 am (UTC)And it's not you. I don't want to date anyone here. Forming a relationship here... I just don't think it's a good idea. I know you have your reasons to want to do it, but I have my reasons for not wanting to.
[He tries to disentangle himself from Zack a little, sliding off of him and letting him go so he can sit on the bed and look at Zack instead of holding him while straddling him.]
I don't understand it either, honestly. What's the big deal if we're good friends and sometimes sleep with one another? What's the difference? You can still romance someone. That someone just doesn't have to be me.
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Date: 2023-12-11 02:26 pm (UTC)I want to sleep with someone who likes me...maybe even loves me. I don't want to sleep with someone who doesn't. It's special to me...I know it's stupid in this place to think it special but I can't change how I feel about it.
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Date: 2023-12-12 05:54 am (UTC)I know, I know. [He grumbles, trying not to sound too frustrated.] You say that like I don't even like you or something.
[He gets up, needing to put more space between them for a minute. Maybe they both needed that, maybe not, but he heads for the bathroom, closing the door gently so he can wash his face with some cold water, shrugging off the last lingering inklings of desire and heat that had built up. He's only gone for a moment, half a minute at most, before he comes back out of the bathroom.]
Seems like I should get out of here. [He offers, looking Zack over.]
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Date: 2023-12-13 01:22 pm (UTC)[Zack can't look at Leon right now, not cause of what Leon's done. Instead he just stays in the bed while Leon heads to the bathroom. He doesn't really say much else and when Leon walks back out he just watches him for a moment and still doesn't move.
It's when Leon is about to leave that he gets up, throwing the blankets off him as he runs after Leon and grabs him from behind.]
Wait...can we...we're still friends right?
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Date: 2023-12-15 07:53 am (UTC)Huh? Yeah. Zack... yeah, man. [He puts his hand over Zack's arm, giving him a reassuring pat.] Just seemed like you could use some space.
I told you, I wasn't planning on disappearing on you.
I'm sure we'll hang out soon. And... Zack... I just... - try not to beat yourself up about this, ok?
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Date: 2023-12-15 03:50 pm (UTC)[He holds Leon a little tighter, his hands holding onto Leon's own hand. He so badly just wants to just stay like this and get to give Leon the affection he deserves but he won't push. Leon drew a line and he will follow it, though sadly.]
You're leaving though right now...I guess I can't keep you longer, you aren't my contract...we're just friends.
[He lets go of Leon and takes a step back then. He sighs and puts on a smile for Leon even if he rather not at the moment.]
I won't beat myself up...promise.
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Date: 2023-12-16 07:11 am (UTC)I... I can stick around for a bit if you really want. I just thought you'd like... [He pauses, feeling like he sounds like a broken record.]- some space. Some time to clean up.
[Leon isn't buying the smile, turning to look at Zack with a sigh as he crosses his arms.] Did you... wanna clean up while I make some breakfast? And coffee. I could use some coffee.
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Date: 2023-12-16 10:55 am (UTC)[He's a little sad that Leon thinks he'd stoop so low. His smile does fade a little and he looks towards the bathroom.]
I can wash up. I don't have many ingredients but I do have waffles. I bought some coffee too if you want.
[He is a little glad the coffee will get use. He bought it for others and not himself.]
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Date: 2023-12-17 05:29 am (UTC)[He nods, heading toward the kitchen. He washes his hands before starting to poke around, finding the waffles and some syrup and the coffee grounds. He can work with this.
It only takes a few minutes to get everything close to ready, so he goes hunting for the dishes.]
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Date: 2023-12-17 02:16 pm (UTC)It smells really good.
[He comes out of the shower, still a little damp and clothes sticking to him in places. He wants to go up to Leon and hug him tenderly from behind, kiss his cheek and be sweet but he doesn't, instead unsure what he should do exactly.]
Thank you Leon.
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Date: 2023-12-18 01:10 am (UTC)Hopefully, it tastes good. I don't do waffles much.
[He turns, two plates loaded up. His gaze briefly grazes down Zack's chest where the shirt clings to him like a second skin. He just hopes his quick glance hadn't been too obvious.] You got syrup? Butter?
[In the meantime, he walks over to the table and sets the plates down, sinking down onto one of the chairs.]
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